Fuck Yo Goal Weight.

& mines too; cuz it's all BULL SHIT.

i usually don't get too too personal, but f*ck it here i go. so lately, because
of i don't know what my weight has fluctuated pretty regularly on the scale.
since summer i have lost 10 pounds without stepping foot into a gym, & well
what do you know? i have finally reached my goal weight. -- maybe due to
stress, maybe from treking across campus all day in the desert & burning more
calories. i am not sure. what i am sure about however, is that besides my
clothes fitting a tad bit nicer, & people commenting on how slim & trim i now
am; I AM PISSED THE FUCK..ALL THE WAY OFF!!!! why you ask?
-- because who on God's green earth invented the term "goal weight" anyway?
a "goal weight" is an imaginary made up number that females more often than
males idolize & deem fit for themselves & sometimes others. it's a range one has
to stay within or else he or she is considered too heavy, over weight, a fat-so,
a fat ass, a cow etc. REALLY, it's a number that i am sick & tired of, & i rebuke
thou number in the name of all things healthy and fit. seriously people, THIS
SHIT IS GETTING HELLA RIDICULOUS & SAD. the pressure to be thin nowadays
is absurd. both society & the culture we live in has made it almost impossible
for anyone NOT to feel at least a little bit self conscious about his or her body
type. i won't dare say that i can fully relate, but i will say that i can now
empathize with anyone suffering from any type of eating disorder. i have always
been the bigg-ER girl growing up with hips, thighs, booty etc, & to finally hit my
"goal weight" & to still feel the exact same way i did two, five, ten pounds
heavier sucks like hell. i finally obtained my sought after number on the scale,
& i feel NO different whatsoever. i am not any happier by this new magic number,
& i sure as hell feel no prettier. so,as i finish this rant i just want to say,
"fuck yo goal weight & mine because it means NADA ZIP ZERO!" remember to
never ever render uncertainty when distinguishing between the terms "goal weight"
& "self worth". the two do not equate & nor will they ever. a number on a scale
should in no way determine how you feel about yourself & others. living a healthy
life is what's most important. --> yes, there are still some mornings where i look
into the mirror & see my body as imperfect, but no longer will i let a misconstrued
image of myself dictate my thoughts, my emotions, my feelings, my life. love your
body babies. it was made by God & God don't make mistakes honey. ♥