Miss Me w/ the Missing.

Disclaimer: Depressing Stuff.
..ugh, so yesterday was my first full day back in the HOT desert
after being in memphis with the fam, friends, & the lovely bf for
a whole month. before i left in june i didn't think i could survive
the southern humidity & ghetto-ness for too long , but surprisingly,
i was so sad to return back home to arizona. after the distance
really hit me, i cried... i can NOT believe i cried. spending thirty-
three days with my mother, sister, brothers, nieces, cousins, etc
was the shit. i have never laughed, cried, vibed, and ate so much
in my life. being away from them all is the hardest thing in my
life right now. phone calls, text messages, social networking
sites, and other hot mess means of communication just doesn't
cut it. there is nothing like the normal everyday interactions
loved ones share when they are physically together. man, this
shit is lame. whenever i go back home after being away for so long,
i feel so out of the loop on people, places, and things. i feel like
a complete stranger entering this foreign realm of people i call
family. i feel left out on family member's lives, and everyone
seems to be growing up and getting old at such a rapid speed.
for example, my little nieces are five & two going on 25 and 22.
they speak almost as well as you and i, but 35 trillion times more.
they are way mature for their age, and some of the stuff they shared
with me blew my mind. miss leyana (the five year old)
relayed to me that my hair was indeed nappy..it was.
& little miss chelsey (the two year old) insisted on shampooing
her own hair..my help, apparently wasn't needed. i love them & miss
them so much. i simply wish they didn't grow up so fast.
i need to move back home, asap!

Next Issue at Hand: ugh!
to miss someone is the WORST feeling in the world. it's like a part of you
is dead and gone until further notice. to constantly yearn for someone's
presence, voice, touch, and spirit is no fun at all. it sucks and it's unfair!
besides the family, the person that i am "missing" the most is the boyfriend.
whoever said long distance relationships were easy lied big time.
we've been doing this whole "distance" thing going on seven months,
and it hurts..BAD. being away from one another has taken its toll on both of us,
and we're to the point where missing each other has become
this depressing and bleak subject. God grant us strength to continue.
i definitely need some positive energy and motivation in these trying times.
& THAT is where these sort of lame "missing you" quotes come in.
some kinda helped, most DID NOT. i won't be completely uplifted
until i see my baby's face again. november where art thou?
come soon and/or sooner. thanks!

Lame Quotes BEWARE!
Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow
feeling warm inside because you're close in heart. ~Kay Knudsen

Can miles truly separate you from loved ones? If you want to
be with someone you love, aren't you already there? ~Richard Bach

Absence from whom we love is worse than

death, and frustrates hope severer than despair. ~William Cowper

No distance of place or lapse of time can lessen the friendship
of those who are thoroughly persuaded of each other's worth.
~Robert Southey

In true love the smallest distance is too great, and the greatest
distance can be bridged. ~Hans Nouwens